Tuesday, June 11, 2013

June 11, 2013

All I wanted was for someone to tell me it was okay to sleep with the lights off...

I think that if I could do life over, with the knowledge I have now, that my favorite memories would be the ones that didn't happen.
I'd go to prom with my now husband. We'd have the big expensive wedding we always saved for. We'd take smooth rides to California and stay for longer. I'd get a job asap, even if it sucked.
So many things I'd change...

All I wanted was for you to stay with me. I need you sometimes.
But you can never seem to tell me the truth.
And here I am again, drowning in a sea of loneliness and abandonment.

Either way I guess.

'Crystal blue waters.
Clear. Open. Warm. Calm.
Brushes the ankles of her onlookers.
Blesses lovers in her wake.
Rocks an angered soul.
Helps a broken friend.
Opens her heart to all who will adore her.
And all who will not'

EDIT: "Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind the way you trouble mine?"